At the age of 10 (a poem by Elisa)


At the age of 10, I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression

At the age of 10, my dreams who were suppose to be my escape from this living nightmare but even they betrayed me

At the age of 10, I barely had any friends

At the age of 10, I hated myself more than I hated my past my enemies because they did the scars in the past but I’m only deepening them as I open them up more

At the age of 10, I was my worst enemy

At the age of 10, I grew to love nothing

At the age 10, I was an natural born actress hiding my real feelings on a stage called life that followed me everywhere I went

At the age of 10, I felt such sad emotions I knew they were wrong to feel but people felt them anyway I felt them anyway

At the age of 10, I felt like things were gonna get worse and for a while I was correct

At the age of 10, I pretended to have a big ego I pretended to be happy all the time “fake it till you make it” they say but it didn’t work like that I now realize

At the age of 10, I was traumatize I was treated unfairly

At the age of 10, I went to a psychiatrist and a therapist

At the age of 10, my friends, my classmates, the people I trusted who were my age or 1 year older didn’t believe me when I opened up to them

At the age of 10, I was already betrayed by some of my family

At the age of 10, I had experienced things I shouldn’t of but was common sadly

At the age of 10, I thought I was alone

At the age of 10, I didn’t fear death like most people

At the age of 10, I felt unloved

At the age of 10, I found my hero

At the age of 10, I grew strong mentally

At the age of 10, I felt love true love

At the age of 10, I hated most of the people I knew who did me wrong but I somehow still loved them

At the age of 10, I grew to love mostly everything

At the age of 10, I tried my hardest to move on from the things that wronged me in the past

At the age of 10, I thought of revealing my true feelings to my class with a poem

At the age of 10, I had a mask I used